My Journal Thingy

i see a red door and i want to paint it black

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 20:19:20 GMT

I'm dating derek. just thought i'd share... and i wrote a new song..and i'm bored

fin.

Graaawrrrr

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 06:21:54 GMT

I dunno I might be back.

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 00:21:02 GMT

I never had the chance to be innocent
and I refuse to be pure
I guess thats why you fuck her now
but don't worry baby
I won't let anyone know how your so fucking insecure.

Hate can feel so good sometimes

Birthday party this friday! ARRR!

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 03:30:38 GMT

Alright Ladies and gents listen up!!
Friday, Jan. 13 is my birthday party!
its gonna be at the Psi Delta house on the Tech Campus
Everyone is invited and you can bring whom ever you like
In order to get into the house YOU MUST BE DRESSED IN PIRATE SWAG!
Fucking Be There!

love
Britty

blood question

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 12:18:37 GMT

alright so i was sitting over in james' room at Psi Delta and something really weird happened.. I was infront of the heater and my legs kept getting really hot but no big deal since i'm infront of the heat source (duh). but then as my legs get hotter we all noticed that my skin started having really strange patters in it. where the heat was hitting my legs a dark red pattern was showing where all of my viens are and then went away after my legs completely cooled down (took a good half hour).

James refuses to let me experiment with this new phenominon because he thinks it has something to do with my anemia and the possibility that my blood is heating rapidly and my skin is staying the same cold temp and this could somehow cause a serious problem.

Does ANYONE know what is going on with my skin/blood????

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 01:44:53 GMT

I hate him, I want him to love me.
I wish I didn't love him, I wish he didn't exist
I want him to remember, I want to forget
He makes me cry, I make him guilty
He wants to make me happy, I want to make him bleed
He wants to be my friend, I want to be his obession
I want to avoid him, but I always make him see me
He wants to be around me, but manages to avoid me
He is guilty
I am sad
He wants to make it better
I want to make it end.
We ruined each other's lives and deserved everything we had comming.

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 19:28:36 GMT

I've been sick for a good 4 days now... horrible weekend... period started to top it all off. i'm so hungry, i just want to be able to eat and enjoy it and not worry about what its going to do to me later. my teacher told me to just go home today. blehhhhhh

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 00:27:21 GMT

photoshop has been keeping me busy ...

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 16:08:26 GMT

I'm comming back into Charleston for the weekend, I dont' really want to but mom wants me to watch the kids so I am. I want a mohawk and want it this weekend. Things are boring right now not much else to say.

-love britty

LOVE ME!!!

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 20:34:37 GMT

This makes me weak i'm sure of it ....

1] Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2] I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3] I'll pick a flavor/color of jello to wrestle with you in. (Maybe.)
4] I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5] I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6] I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7] I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8] If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST

Feels like Fall

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 21:00:23 GMT

My boyfriend is sleeping in my bed right now, hah poor thing can't sleep at night. I felt so horrible yesterday. To make a long shitty story short ... the condom broke. I still feel like crying. No one around here offers the morning after pill, but I think we are gonna drive around and see if we can find it. After tomorrow it will be too late. Yesterday I started taking high doses of vitamin C. Thats suppose to work pretty well for miscarrages and avoiding pregnancy. I feel insanely stupid. but I know things will work out.

Miss my ladies
-britty

pic time

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 23:33:23 GMT

here are some pics of my dorm. i might post some of the rest of ratliff another time, but resizing the pics is just too boring right now

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 02:32:41 GMT

I got my septum pierced today, it hurt like 6 bitches in a bitch boat, but I like it. I'm in craigs dorm now, so once they turn on my internet in my room i'll post a pic. Craig got a tattoo, I'll post a pic of that too :)

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 19:21:27 GMT

Just wanted to air out some old boxes of memories.

a couple of things urged me today to look up a comunity for cutters. I don't cut anymore promise, but i just wanted to read what those people had to say. I want to cry right here at work just break down and cry all my makeup away. I still have urges but having broken skin for 2 years. I would like someone to talk about it with. Maybe even help someone make me feel like I had some purpose for going through all that. It makes me sad because I know what its like for these people and I know how hard it is to stop. whats worse is i know what its like when the people you care about and want to care about you are discusted by what you do. when they don't understand you have a problem and it isn't as simple as just slicing yourself up. But then I wouldn't know what to talk about if i did have someone to talk with. I mean i'm all better now i dont' cut and i know its wrong to cut sometimes i feel like i need to explain myself to feel justified but i know that I dont' and that my true friends will never ask me to. Maybe its one of those things that people just never get over, no matter how many years you can go without doing it you'll always want to. Who knows.

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 12:13:05 GMT

Well this lady is single. Crapy weekend left me all axious and down. got a few things for my dorm, and wish that I could have got out with my ladies last saturday. I was making money tho so its all good. This is also my last week at work, so after Friday I'll be cut off the internet completely until the 18th. I'm not at all sad about leaving work, Jabba drives me nuts all day long. and my mom (whom I also work with ) had turned on bitch mode towards me. I just have to hang in there 10 more days.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 17:16:09 GMT

I saw her once she turned away,

Then took the ride and said to pay.

Your a pretty girl but you wont go far,

And no one cares where you are.

Now give a smirk, give a sign,

and show a little skin this time.

Beauty Queen never mean, just pretend its all a dream,

Pretty Smile, walk a mile, away from heart ache and denile.

I knew her once she spread her legs,

then took a gun and said to beg.

Your pretty girl but you don't know how,

And no one wants to save you now.

So roll over, do a trick,

Then come here and suck my dick.

Beauty Queen never mean, just forget the things that you've seen

Pretty smile, walk a mile, now close your eyes and stand on trial

Call it what you like poetry, lyrics, shit ...I just needed to write something

oh and for anyone who does bother to read it and is confused, yes she shoots him, right in the head.

Funny Shit

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 14:44:46 GMT

Ever wonder how to operate your car? How about the safty procedures of an airplane. Well wonder no more!

http://www.airtoons.com/home.php

(click the link to see more)

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 14:07:59 GMT

I went back to my old house yesterday to check on my room and see if my new shirt had arrived yet (it hadn't) the room was its usual messiness from the kids playing and watching movies in there, which i don't mind. those are my babies if they want to hang out in my room then they can, its their sanctuary :)
but as i checked on my bathroom i noticed that their was a condom rapper in the trashcan. now considering that the bathroom in in my room and usually only used my me or the girls this can only leave me to believe that my lesbian sister has been letting people stay in my room. i say lesbian to clarify why i know it wasn't her. of course when mom told her she said she didn't know how it got there.
I was completely discusted. went to my aunts house got some boxes and started packing my things. I move into my dorm in 12 days i think, so it won't hurt to pack stuff up. i threw all my sheets and covers into a bag to be washed and left the house with 3 boxes and a very pissed off me.

I hate my sister.

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 20:13:11 GMT

I bought a new shirt yesterday, i want to wear it to a hardcore show. it says "Pirates are way cooler than Ninjas" and has a little pirate guy flipping off the little ninja guy.

I still hate my job but i did manage to turn my 45 minute lunch break into 2 hours of doing nothing at all.

15 days till i move into tech and become a gamming internet junkie again. I feel like a herion addict i can't wait to feed the addiction.

I <3 Computers

Crybaby

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 12:06:06 GMT

Craig's mom made my cry yesterday. We went to his house after fixing Bolt's computer and he tried on pants she got him. He wanted to cut the bottoms of them so that the ancles wouldn't be so tight. His mom made the comment

" only quers wear bell bottoms"

and after stating that those arent' bell bottomes i told her that what she had said was very offensive. so looked at me and said

" what? are you a fag?"

i had no clue what to say craig stepped in a little and i told her that i find those kind of things very offensive and to please not talk like that around me, i don't say things that offend her i would like the same respect as i'm giving.

"your never going to change my mind."
me> I'm not trying to change your mind I would just like you to be less offensive around me.
"if God thinks its an abomination why shouldn't we."
me>Its not your place to judge poeple its gods(even tho i don't believe in god)
"If people were less tolerent in this world their might not be as many fags"
me> no its the people who aren't tolerent and are bluntly offensive that drive people to buy guns and shoot up schools.
"I'd never shoot a fag"
me> no but i know if someone offended me enough i'd want to hurt them
"am i suppose to take that as a threat?"
me> I'm ready to leave *gets up and heads for the door*
"no no you never want to have a conversation about things"
me> This is not a conversation! *goes to the car and waits for Craig*

I cried, I'd never felt so attacked in my life. I hate this woman I'm ashamed to say I know her. My mom said i have to keep in mind i'm dealing with a psycho bitch and that nothing she says really matters anyway. It didn't make me feel much better. I wish that I was disrespectful enough to chew her out but I've always been tough that you dont' say anything bad about someone especially if you sitting in thier house.

If WWII were fought online....

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 19:08:56 GMT

Useless fact 1: this is what WWII would have been like if it were fought online....

--------------------------------
*Hitler[AoE] has joined the game.*
*Eisenhower has joined the game.*
*paTTon has joined the game.*
*Churchill has joined the game.*
*benny-tow has joined the game.*
*T0J0 has joined the game.*
*Roosevelt has joined the game.*
*Stalin has joined the game.*
*deGaulle has joined the game.*
Roosevelt: hey sup
T0J0: y0
Stalin: hi
Churchill: hi
Hitler[AoE]: cool, i start with panzer tanks!
paTTon: lol more like panzy tanks
T0JO: lol
Roosevelt: o this fockin sucks i got a depression!
benny-tow: haha america sux
Stalin: hey hitler you dont fight me i dont fight u, cool?
Hitler[AoE]; sure whatever
Stalin: cool
deGaulle: **** Hitler rushed some1 help
Hitler[AoE]: lol byebye frenchy
Roosevelt: i dont got crap to help, sry
Churchill: wtf the luftwaffle is attacking me
Roosevelt: get antiair guns
Churchill: i cant afford them
benny-tow: u n00bs know what team talk is?
paTTon: stfu
Roosevelt: o yah hit the navajo button guys
deGaulle: eisenhower ur worthless come help me quick
Eisenhower: i cant do **** til rosevelt gives me an army
paTTon: yah hurry the fock up
Churchill: d00d im gettin pounded
deGaulle: this is fockin weak u guys suck
*deGaulle has left the game.*
Roosevelt: im gonna attack the axis k?
benny-tow: with what? ur wheelchair?
benny-tow: lol did u mess up ur legs AND ur head?
Hitler[AoE]: ROFLMAO
T0J0: lol o no america im comin 4 u
Roosevelt: wtf! thats bull**** u fags im gunna kick ur asses
T0JO: not without ur harbors u wont! lol
Roosevelt: u little biotch ill get u
Hitler[AoE]: wtf
Hitler[AoE]: america hax, u had depression and now u got a huge fockin army
Hitler[AoE]: thats bull**** u hacker
Churchill: lol no more france for u hitler
Hitler[AoE]: tojo help me!
T0J0: wtf u want me to do, im on the other side of the world retard
Hitler[AoE]: fine ill clear you a path
Stalin: u arsshoel! WE HAD A FoCKIN TRUCE
Hitler[AoE]: i changed my mind lol
benny-tow: haha
benny-tow: hey ur losing ur guys in africa im gonna need help in italy soon
sum1
T0J0: o **** i cant help u i got my hands full
Hitler[AoE]: im 2 busy 2 help
Roosevelt: yah thats right biznitch im comin for ya
Stalin: church help me
Churchill: like u helped me before? sure ill just sit here
Stalin: dont be an arss
Churchill: dont be a commie. oops too late
Eisenhower: LOL
benny-tow: hahahh oh **** help
Hitler: o man ur focked
paTTon: oh what now biotch
Roosevelt: whos the cripple now lol
*benny-tow has been eliminated.*
benny-tow: lame
Roosevelt: gj patton
paTTon: thnx
Hitler[AoE]: eisenhower hax hes killing all my ****
Hitler[AoE]: quit u hacker so u dont ruin my record
Eisenhower: Nuts!
benny~tow: wtf that mean?
Eisenhower: meant to say nutsack lol finger slipped
paTTon: coming to get u hitler u paper hanging hun ****socker
Stalin: rofl
T0J0: HAHAHHAA
Hitler[AoE]: u guys are fockin gay
Hitler[AoE]: ur never getting in my city
*Hitler[AoE] has been eliminated.*
benny~tow: OMG u noob you killed yourself
Eisenhower: ROFLOLOLOL
Stalin: OMG LMAO!
Hitler[AoE]: i didnt click there omg this game blows
*Hitler[AoE] has left the game*
paTTon: hahahhah
T0J0: my teammates are n00bs
benny~tow: shut up noob
Roosevelt: haha wut a moron
paTTon: wtf am i gunna do now?
Eisenhower: yah me too
T0J0: why dont u attack me o thats right u dont got no ships lololol
Eisenhower: fock u
paTTon: lemme go thru ur base commie
Stalin: go to hell lol
paTTon: fock this **** im goin afk
Eisenhower: yah this is gay
*Roosevelt has left the game.*
Hitler[AoE]: wtf?
Eisenhower: **** now we need some1 to join
*tru_m4n has joined the game.*
tru_m4n: hi all
T0J0: hey
Stalin: sup
Churchill: hi
tru_m4n: OMG OMG OMG i got all his stuff!
tru_m4n: NUKES! HOLY **** I GOT NUKES
Stalin: d00d gimmie some plz
tru_m4n: no way i only got like a couple
Stalin: omg dont be gay gimmie nuculer secrets
T0J0: wtf is nukes?
T0J0: holy ****holy****hoylshti!!!111
*T0J0 has been eliminated.*
*The Allied team has won the game!*
Eisenhower: awesome!
Churchill: gg noobs no re
T0J0: thats bull**** u fockin suck
*T0J0 has left the game.*
*Eisenhower has left the game.*
Stalin: next game im not going to be on ur team, u guys didnt help me for ****
Churchill: wutever, we didnt need ur help neway dumbarss
tru_m4n: l8r all
benny~tow: bye
Churchill: l8r
Stalin: fock u all
tru_m4n: shut up commie lol
*tru_m4n has left the game.*
benny~tow: lololol u commie
Churchill: ROFL
Churchill: bye commie
*Churchill has left the game.*
*benny~tow has left the game.*
Stalin: i hate u all fags
*Stalin has left the game.*
paTTon: lol no1 is left
paTTon: weeeee i got a jeep
*paTTon has been eliminated.*
paTTon: o ****!
*paTTon has left the game.*

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 16:53:05 GMT

I hate my job thank god i only have two more weeks. I got a job making characters for a video game, ok so they aren't active characters but eh its a start and i'm very excited to be involved.

Can't wait to see my bloody ladies this saturday I will need a ride tho so if anyone would mind picking me up I'd really appriciate it.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 19:07:48 GMT

Jeese i want a new hole in my body, suggestions anyone?

My AP Art score: 4

*happy me*

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 22:34:08 GMT

sooo i went to my leg doctor and here are the results:

fracture is nearly all better
peice of bone got chipped and is floating around in my knee
(the chip shouldn't effect me)
i have to do knee exercises to getmy muscles back to normal
the doctor said he didn't see anything wrong with me moshing again (after I'm all fixed up)

Ninja dancers should be shot

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 20:10:02 GMT

so the doctor just called and told me that the x-rays of my knee came back and i have a cracked femur. i'm kinda pissed that i've been waling around for 4 weeks with cracked bones while my mom bitched about having to take me to the doctor for nothing, but oh well. my new found hate for ninja dancers is overwhelming. I can take a hit, but crack my fucking knee and i may whine a little sorry.